hello reader, i hope you're been well. recently, i am trapped between in a matrix of many contradictions. well, to be more accurate, i have been living on the line of many contradictions for a long time. artist vs. engineer, inventor vs. engineer, masc vs. fem, etc. the most currently pressing of these is what i describe succinctly as doing vs. dreaming. i have been so lucky as to have started becoming involved with a couple activism groups/ opportunities, which has been very heartening! however, the main group i joined is a labor organizing group first and foremost, and many of their efforts are directed towards improving labor rights & collectively supporting their members. this, of course, is fuckin awesome. that's part of the reason i joined, because i've never really been in a labor group that had a community aspect, and i really like it a lot. but it makes me think about my relationship with the work i'm doing in the education space. as i'm making this book/experience/thing, i think of myself as acting as staunchly outside capitalism as i possibly can. i refuse current systems and harvest the information from them with no need to continue to drag around old stories or biased assumptions. and of course, it's free and open to community comments (although i am a stubborn man, and since this book is an experiment less so than a solution to a given problem, there are compromises i don't feel like making for it).